Reflections

I am tired. It has been an amazing couple of weeks. I've been really feeling God press on my heart to step it up. I've spent the majority of my life feeling scared and unsure of myself. And to be in a place where I can be confidant in the calling God has for me is truly freeing.

I spoke on Sunday for the first time and it truly was an amazing experience for me. Processing out loud the items that God has laid on my heart has been a blessing. I felt truly blessed by God's goodness and the acceptance of my family. They have been a reflection of God's grace and mercy.

Living in the moment, in the 'here and now' is excruitiating. It's easier to look toward the future and dream about where we would like to be... Reliving stories of our past continues to keep us one step away from staying present. The present is where we see the contextual reality of our brokenness and our weakness. I guess it never occurs to us that where we are might be where God wants us to be. We never think that the place that we are in just might be where God is calling us. It is the 'today' reflections where God can transform our hearts with His redemptive purposes for our future. God restores us daily by redeeming our past, giving us strength to live in the present and granting us the freedom to dream for tomorrow. Humble me, Oh God.